Introduction

[acidrica.livejournal.com]

 

Hello there, I guess this is the part where I write about myself. This is my community lj, so you won't find any info or journals on this account. I'm know by a couple of names on the web, but none of them are really 'mine' . Until I find one, just call me fool. So, here we go, thoughts on me and Crow:

I have wings. Large, black wings. I have claws. I also have long, distinctly non-avian ears. I am bipedal.

In none of my memories do I have a beak. In none of my memories do I caw.

So why, whenever I hear the rasp of a crow, do I feel such a strong urge to answer?

Why, whenever I see a gathering of crows, do I feel a desperate emptiness and need to belong?

Why do I want to join them?

I am not a crow, I've never been a crow. I am otherkin, not a crow. I know what I am, what I was.

But what I was is so different from what I am now. I've found humor. I've found love. I've (dare I say it?) grown as a person. So maybe, in this life, I am a crow.

I think, that in this life, I am a crow. For some, odd, strange reason, I'm a crow. Was I adopted? Sounds unlikely, but it seems to be the closest thing to the truth I can find.

It seems almost as if Crow gave me a way to belong to this world.

Crow gave me guidance.

Crow gave me laughter.

Crow also gave me the most precious gift of all.

Crow gave me change.

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Blah, that was horrible. I haven't written in ages. Anyway, hi!

Edit to add logic:

I see Crow as sort of the representative spirit of the species, kinda totem-esque, I guess. But I also feel like I am a crow. I also, however, strongly believe in reincarnation since I just remember stuff from before I was born. I remember what I was and who I was, and I wasn't human or animal, and I don't identify as being human.

In all honesty, I have trouble with relating to most humans to the point of being pissy. Most people irritate me, and I've found that the only people I can interact with without the danger of me laughing at them are other animal people or otherkin. I understand that this is a weakness and I'm currently trying to change my behavior. I'm very ashamed by my arrogance.

I believe in magic, though in a slightly different way than most people I know. If I had to label myself anything, I'd have to call myself a chaos magic practitioner. Chaote or what have you. I don't get into it that much since I don't believe that I have to do workings every hour of every day. In fact, it's been over two months since I've "done" anything. Unless there's a reason, I don't really bother.

I'm from the south, with all the country music and whatnot.

I'm currently working to get into an art school.

I used the little interest search thingy to find this community, and my favorite food is any sort of meat.

Comments

[aloiis.livejournal.com]

Hello, pleased to meet you. Your introduction is a bit vague to me - vague can be okay, but I'm curious now. How being crow differs from Crow for you, what's your relation to those? Why do you identify as otherkin? Where are you from, what's your occupation, how did you find this community, what's your favorite food? :D Sorry I got carried over.

[acidrica.livejournal.com]

Blarg, sorry, I was going to add a lot more...but my brain died. I see Crow as sort of the representative spirit of the species, kinda totem-esque, I guess, but I also feel like I am a crow. I also, however, strongly believe in reincarnation since I just remember stuff from before I was born. I remember what I was and who I was, and I wasn't human or animal, and I don't identify as being human.
I'm from the south, with all the country music and whatnot. I'm currently working to get into an art school. I used the little interest search thingy, and my favorite food is any sort of meat.

[aloiis.livejournal.com]

Teehee thanks for your reply. ^^ I want to an art school (illustration/animation) for a while, but it didn't work out great. I really didn't get along with the people, the atmosphere, and it's was a lot of stress for no enjoyment. Also not goot for my self-growth... I'm much happier since I left, I love my new fields. :3

[acidrica.livejournal.com]

Wow, it was that bad? Urg, now I have something to look forward to. XD

[aloiis.livejournal.com]

(P.S.: the favorite food thing was more of a joke because I was asking all kinds of intrusive questions, I've just noticed you pasted it in your intro. ^^)

Good luck with everything! I hope you'll have an awesome time there. :)

[acidrica.livejournal.com]

XD I figured, but I thought it couldn't hurt. Thank you! ^.^

[7deadlysins.livejournal.com]

Hi :)

I agree with Aloïs, about it being a bit vague, and I think what he means is do you identify as a crow, like the animal, as an individual, or do you identify with a more archetypal Crow? Is crow/Crow *you*, or do you feel it's sort of a guiding force/protector/teacher? (Feel free to correct me on that, Aloïs, that's how I interpreted your question though :P)

By the way, just to make that clear... whenever I see an animal name with a capital letter, I associate it with the archetype, and lowercase letter, the animal itself. if that makes any sense.

Anyway... another crow-person here. nice to meet you :)

[acidrica.livejournal.com]

Once again, sorry, my brain was dead. I feel like crow the animal but I also feel sort of guided by the archetypal Crow. ^.^'' Nice to meet you!

[7deadlysins.livejournal.com]

I realize it's been a while since my original comment, haha... but don't apologize! I was just giving you my personal thoughts, and asking a question to clear things up for me, not trying to say you typed something wrong :)

In any case... Yay!