Waters of Obscurity: My Therianthropic Self-concept

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I took a somewhat broader and more extensive approach for the "representation of Self" prompt option (I think this is the first time I actually got a writing finished the month it's a chosen prompt).  As usual I'll also be putting this essay up on my website soon.


When it comes to an image or concept of mine in which to represent myself, or for what I “look like” in my mind’s eye, there is no defining answer to that.  Although I’m a visual artist and love to do depictions of various things I imagine or see in my mind, including character concepts, I don’t recall ever ‘seeing’ a clear, or even remotely clear, visual image of myself in my mind.  Honestly, how I ‘view’ myself is actually more understanding and “feeling” than it is visualization, though there is some visualization to it.  There’s also not one sole way I view myself, it’s a somewhat fluid concept that extends to certain boundaries—within my theriotypes and certain human or humanoid concepts I have of myself, but within those boundaries it’s not a concrete, solid concept.  There is some idealism to it, though not much I’ve consciously chosen, and specifics are few.

 

( continued self-concept essay )