Introduction

[acidrica.livejournal.com]

 

Hello there, I guess this is the part where I write about myself. This is my community lj, so you won't find any info or journals on this account. I'm know by a couple of names on the web, but none of them are really 'mine' . Until I find one, just call me fool. So, here we go, thoughts on me and Crow:

I have wings. Large, black wings. I have claws. I also have long, distinctly non-avian ears. I am bipedal.

In none of my memories do I have a beak. In none of my memories do I caw.

So why, whenever I hear the rasp of a crow, do I feel such a strong urge to answer?

Why, whenever I see a gathering of crows, do I feel a desperate emptiness and need to belong?

Why do I want to join them?

I am not a crow, I've never been a crow. I am otherkin, not a crow. I know what I am, what I was.

But what I was is so different from what I am now. I've found humor. I've found love. I've (dare I say it?) grown as a person. So maybe, in this life, I am a crow.

I think, that in this life, I am a crow. For some, odd, strange reason, I'm a crow. Was I adopted? Sounds unlikely, but it seems to be the closest thing to the truth I can find.

It seems almost as if Crow gave me a way to belong to this world.

Crow gave me guidance.

Crow gave me laughter.

Crow also gave me the most precious gift of all.

Crow gave me change.

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Blah, that was horrible. I haven't written in ages. Anyway, hi!

Edit to add logic:

I see Crow as sort of the representative spirit of the species, kinda totem-esque, I guess. But I also feel like I am a crow. I also, however, strongly believe in reincarnation since I just remember stuff from before I was born. I remember what I was and who I was, and I wasn't human or animal, and I don't identify as being human.

In all honesty, I have trouble with relating to most humans to the point of being pissy. Most people irritate me, and I've found that the only people I can interact with without the danger of me laughing at them are other animal people or otherkin. I understand that this is a weakness and I'm currently trying to change my behavior. I'm very ashamed by my arrogance.

I believe in magic, though in a slightly different way than most people I know. If I had to label myself anything, I'd have to call myself a chaos magic practitioner. Chaote or what have you. I don't get into it that much since I don't believe that I have to do workings every hour of every day. In fact, it's been over two months since I've "done" anything. Unless there's a reason, I don't really bother.

I'm from the south, with all the country music and whatnot.

I'm currently working to get into an art school.

I used the little interest search thingy to find this community, and my favorite food is any sort of meat.

Comments

[7deadlysins.livejournal.com]

Hi :)

I agree with Aloïs, about it being a bit vague, and I think what he means is do you identify as a crow, like the animal, as an individual, or do you identify with a more archetypal Crow? Is crow/Crow *you*, or do you feel it's sort of a guiding force/protector/teacher? (Feel free to correct me on that, Aloïs, that's how I interpreted your question though :P)

By the way, just to make that clear... whenever I see an animal name with a capital letter, I associate it with the archetype, and lowercase letter, the animal itself. if that makes any sense.

Anyway... another crow-person here. nice to meet you :)

[acidrica.livejournal.com]

Once again, sorry, my brain was dead. I feel like crow the animal but I also feel sort of guided by the archetypal Crow. ^.^'' Nice to meet you!

[7deadlysins.livejournal.com]

I realize it's been a while since my original comment, haha... but don't apologize! I was just giving you my personal thoughts, and asking a question to clear things up for me, not trying to say you typed something wrong :)

In any case... Yay!