No need to apologize, thoughts spurring from this could come in all forms I'm sure. :] I'm not quite fit to arrange my thoughts well, either xx; mmf. too much homework.

Considering communing, everyone is different. When I mentioned talking to others, I mostly mean years back before a few friends of mine really surfed the web to read essays and whatnot there. I had only read a bit from one person, and from there had found the word for what described my feelings. A few people I knew from a forum felt the same, and thus we expressed our thoughts and findngs - mostly just to reassure each other we weren't insane :P heh. Nowadays, it's hard to find someone 'serious', thus most people (I think) just write essays and keep to their group of friends (online.) Harder for conversation, which is something I love. This community helps!

I just miss the communion that I had before, or more, I wish I could develop it now - I'd love to talk to more people IRL some day. Always have. But it's nothing compared to just living, and I'm content with that for now.